monday dental drama

well, as you all know from my posts sa peysbuk.. i've been battling a terrible toothache for on and off 3 months na ata.. i finally decided to go to the dentist last week to get it all sorted out and turned out that i needed a filling.. so there! but putaena mga pare, after nya gawin mas naging worse ang saket!! 4 days after: ROOT CANAL!

nakakalerkey talaga yung sakit even after the 2 shots of local anaesthesia. naiyak nako!! wth??

para akong bata kase i was thinking na twas so scary, and i was all.. ALONE.

i had to leave the clinic at dusk, with some drizzle outside, feelin' all cold and had to take a long walk home (approximately 25 minutes).. then as i was walking umandar na naman ang pagka-emo ko (a.k.a pagkapraning)..

then naisip ko rin ang rapid turn around ng image ko from boring college student to... party animal??

(KONEK: ekai's post FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE)

tomador. petix. yan na ko ngaun. (or at least yan ang interpretation sakin ng mga frends ko after college).. oh well, these people seldom take me seriously. panay daw kase ako biro. actually, dinadaan ko lang naman kase sa tawa yung mga bagay2 paminsan, defense mechanism ba!! and come to think of it, i never had a 'real boyfriend' since college. i'm beginning to think that my being 'petix' is repelling a serious romantic relationship.

. . .

gusto ko lang naman may kasama na ako ulit magsimba,

na tumambay sa starbux habang nagppeople-watching,

mag window shopping,

makausap habang break ko.. or break nya..

or just someone to cry to when shit happens.